My Values
Key values of mine are empathy, creativity, integrity and connection. These help to shape the choices I make, the way I act and how I spend my time. My parenting journey has been a huge journey in learning about just who I am and what I stand for. Children are amazing mirrors helping to show us who we are, what has shaped us and where we fall short of our own values or understanding of ourselves in our actions. This journey has also led me to find groups with others with similar values which has helped me recognise and grown in the areas that are aligned with my values, such as La Leche League and Active Birth which both has a group ethos about supporting others where they are at with empathy and recognising that through connection and support people thrive. I grew up in an academic culture where a lot of value was placed on end products, where what you presented at the end and how you presented it was the most important thing. Yet over time have really come to value process over product when it comes to education, learning and creativity. There is so much to learn in the process of creating a thing and sometimes it gets nowhere but the magic really read what happened in the middle and how those involved learnt and grew.
My Strengths
According to All Rights Strength Finder (find it here) my top five strengths are kindness, humour, creativity, gratitude and fairness. I checked in with a couple of friends to see if they thought that these were a good fit and they also agreed which was helpful! These strengths could support me in my learning journey as I will be able to use humour and gratitude to help keep myself going when things get tough for me. Creativity will support me when looking for solutions to problems. Kindness and fairness will help with working alongside others on this journey, and ideally I will also manage to apply both of them to myself when I am finding things difficult.
My Limitations
When looking at the bottom of my Strength Finder list I scored lowest in the qualities of prudence, spirituality, perseverance, leadership, and self-regulation. I feel like the perseverance does not quite fit here and is because some of the questions asked about finishing what started, and there are definitely plenty of crafty pursuits that I have started and then they are waiting on me patiently. I feel that when it comes to sticking at things that are tough kind of perseverance I have that. The others however are very valid, which was backed up again when checking in with others in my life. Although it was pointed out that while I shy way from leadership, that I do plenty of leading from behind (see my testimonial from Hone here, just be aware he is a writer so it is quite lengthy!). Self-regulation and leadership are the limitations with the most likelihood of impacting on my learning journey as working with others in a peer to peer way it will be most beneficial for me to not always defer to others to lead or drive the process, but instead for it to be that sometimes I take the lead on things. Self-regulation can have an impact in that sometimes I can get carried away in activities and forget to stop and eat, or can sink more time into an activity than it really merits. Another way this can be a limitation is when it comes to emotional regulations, as sometimes I can have a tendency to feel things bigger than really need to be at first than wind it back as I work through those feelings, which could come into play when struggling with difficult work or challenging group dynamics.
Putting it in Action
Following my moral and ethical compass
An example of a time where I made an ethical decision was when I was boarding with a friend while looking for a new rental and they suggested that we tell WINZ I was paying one amount for board so they would pay me more accommodation supplement, but that in reality I only pay her half of that amount, so that my budget would be easier to manage. I considered her offer, but at the end of the day my value of integrity and my moral compass just did not sit right with their suggestion so I went back to them and said thank you for the offer but I do not feel comfortable doing that. Making that call did feel difficult as I did not want to feel like in saying no I was judging them or not appreciating their attempt to support me, but it would have felt worse doing anything else. Going back I would make the same decision.
When things get tricky
An example of when I was trying to work productively with others but there was resistance was in a savings pool I was part of where there were differing ideas about how to operate. Tension arose when some wanted to approve all loans if there was funds in the account at this moment without to much attention paid to the security of the loans, where as I and some others wanted to ensure that we were doing due diligence with security for the loans and looking forward to make sure that we were not going to be in a situation that we would not have money in the account for scheduled outgoings later on. At the time I tried looking at their perspective with curiosity to find out what was behind it and see if I could apply it to my perspective more, so I asked questions and also pondered in my own time to help with this. Through this I discovered that the others had a strong want to be focused on the present and to trust others as their baseline which I could really understand, but at the same time I realised that for me I felt a strong sense of responsibility for those who had put their savings in the account and safeguarding their money and also their right to access the money when they told us they would need to. There was a lot of discussion had around how we wanted to operate and what the values of the group were and why, trying to find a way that respected both positions as much as possible.
